Wed Dec 16th

I did more baking today and made up the rest of the goodie plates for the neighbors. Link slept terrible again last night and refused to sleep unless I was holding him. I even let him cry in his bed for a long while, but he is far too stubborn and would not go to sleep. I hope I'm not ruining his attachment to me by letting him cry. I just don't know what to do. I need a break from holding him all day long. Call me a bad mom, but I just start to go crazy when I have to hold him most of the day. I love Link and I love that he loves me so much. But I just need a break now and again. And with Nick out of town I can only get it during nap time. Forgive me Hravenly Father for my negative feelings and help me to be a better mom. I let Lisey watch way to much tv today and poor Link was probably so bored. Not my best mom day today. 

I saw a beggar woman on my way to take the kids to swim lessons. I felt I should give her some money, but I hesitated and second guessed my self and the moment passed. I feel terrible about it. I'm so sorry Heavenly Father. "Are we not all beggars?" Didn't I just read that in the scriptures earlier this week? Help me to be more giving and quicker to act on my good intentions. Shameful Brooke. 

Sian and Steve took Link with them to Cosco so I didn't have to take him with me to the girls swim lessons. What a blessing. I have a moment to myself to just sit. I've used it to read my journal and think about things. Thank you heavenly father for this blessing in my life today. I needed a little break to contemplate life and to realize how much I love and appreciate Link, even if he is little clingy. 

I went visiting teaching and gave my girls a basket of goodies. Then I got the kids to bed and folded a mountain of laundry. Tomorrow I will takle the kitchen.