Wed Sept 30th

Went for a run and got to chat with my good old friend Stephanie. It felt just like old times. 

I'm fighting the gloomies today. It took me a while to pinpoint why but I've decided it's from this cloudy yucky weather. I always forget how much the lack of sun affects me, but it does and it makes me depressed. I hope the sun comes out tomorrow. I don't like feeling like this. I feel worthless and like a terrible mom and like my life is going nowhere. It's amazing what a bunch of clouds can do to me. 

To try and disapprove my own belief that I'm a terrible mom, I made a witch decoration with Lisey while Lincoln took his nap. Then after he got up we went to the farm and rode the ponies and the carriage. Crafting with Lisey and getting out, helped lift my spirits and it made me feel like at a little bit of a better mom. 

This is Blondie, the house Lisey likes the mouse bc she had blonde hair just like her. Lisey rode her 3 different times and a short fat pony once. 

Link only wanted to ride once but he really enjoyed that one time. 

Riding in the carriage :)

Lisey the giant!

Lisey loves doing crafts! Especially Halloween crafts. She went on and on about the witch and the making the different pieces of her. I definitely need to do more crafts with her. She loves them and its something fun we can do together. While we were making our witch, she told me that she likes to sleep in my bed because she loves me. She talked about Giga being my mom and Papa being my dad. She said how much she misses Cam and Anne. It was so fun hearing her talk so much in her cute tiny voice. 

After school and homework we went to Deseret Book to look at scriptures, cases and CTR rings. I can't believe Ella is almost 8 years old! She's really excited to be baptized :)

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